I'm afraid I've heard some terrible news from Zilla in the last couple of hours - it's hard to even bring myself to write this post....... but I have to do it....... I have to tell you the awful news that our adorable little Amusing Bunni passed away on Monday 29th April - Opus #6 says that Bunni phoned the hospice on Sunday morning and asked to be taken there - she ended up losing her brave battle with liver cancer at 5:00am, (11:00am BST), the following morning.
I've been seriously dreading this day since Bunni first told me about her illness so right now as I'm writing this, I'm not in very good shape at all.
I tried to phone her just two or three hours before I heard what had happened and got her answering machine - that wasn't so unusual in recent weeks because her disease wasn't only extremely painful, it was terribly exhausting and she had to rest whenever she could because she couldn't even get a decent night's sleep.
I didn't realise when we talked last week that it would be the last time...... actually, looking back now, I think she knew the end was closer than she was letting on but she didn't want to tell me because she hated making me feel sad - and that was darling little Bunnikins all over - always putting others before herself....... she really was one in a million....... when we were saying goodbye, I told again that I loved her and she told me she loved me, too........ and that was it - the last words we ever said to each other.
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| CAROL - OUR DARLING LITTLE BUNNI |
I didn't realise when we talked last week that it would be the last time...... actually, looking back now, I think she knew the end was closer than she was letting on but she didn't want to tell me because she hated making me feel sad - and that was darling little Bunnikins all over - always putting others before herself....... she really was one in a million....... when we were saying goodbye, I told again that I loved her and she told me she loved me, too........ and that was it - the last words we ever said to each other.
She's been such a good, gentle, kind and thoughtful friend over the years and, as you know, I grew to love her dearly even though we lived so far apart - I'm going to miss her so very much....... I already do.
I truly hope she's with her Mommy again - that was her dearest wish - it was that one thought that gave her the strength to carry on these last few months. She certainly deserves to be with her again after all these years, (she lost her mum when she was only five years old), and that she's once again, surrounded by love, warmth, completely free of pain and at total peace.
I hope Bunni and I get to meet again someday - and, of course, when we do meet, I also hope that her mom actually approves of me as being suitable company for her darling daughter.
I truly hope she's with her Mommy again - that was her dearest wish - it was that one thought that gave her the strength to carry on these last few months. She certainly deserves to be with her again after all these years, (she lost her mum when she was only five years old), and that she's once again, surrounded by love, warmth, completely free of pain and at total peace.
I hope Bunni and I get to meet again someday - and, of course, when we do meet, I also hope that her mom actually approves of me as being suitable company for her darling daughter.
Wonderfully put. She was a gentle soul.
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) God bless you.
ReplyDelete((((hugs)))) Spidie!
ReplyDeleteLinked. http://mainfo.blogspot.com/2013/05/our-dear-friend-bunni-passed-away.html
Spidey, she will be missed. I know how much you two meant to each other.
ReplyDeleteLinked:
ReplyDeletehttp://marezilla.com/2013/05/amusing-bunni-home-going/
Thanks, Zilla, I'll put all the links in this thread into the main body of the post.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Odie, she was the best, mate.
ReplyDeleteBIG HUGS to you for being such a good friend to Bunni. I'm sorry for the sadness you have and hope that God will bless you with a peaceful heart knowing that Bunni is in a better place.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Opie, I loved your updated post - I'll include a picture of Carol in this post, now that I know it's okay.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Red, I'm trying to console myself with the fact that Bunni is no longer in terrible pain. I know things will get better with time but at the moment it's very difficult having to talk about her in the past tense.
ReplyDeleteThanks again, Zilla, and thanks for all the help you gave Bunni when she had to stop working.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Bob, yes she was - that's exactly what drew me to her when we first met online - our friendship just kept growing and growing.
ReplyDeleteSo terribly sad and what a beautiful woman she was too, I didn't know her as you did but I loved her she was a good woman and will be missed by everyone she touched in life. What makes it worse for me is that she died on my birthday so I will always think of her when my birthday is here. R.I.P Bunni x
ReplyDeleteI've taken a copy of the photo I hope that's ok x
ReplyDeleteThanks, MM, because of this it's now a date I will never forget.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure Bunni wouldn't mind at all, MM.
ReplyDeleteSpidey.. i have no words, just very sad. Bunni, you and Bunni's family shall be in my thoughts
ReplyDeleteThanks Daniel, I appreciate it , mate.
ReplyDeleteWhat a truly beautiful woman...and of course I'm not just talking about that photo.
ReplyDeleteI hope one day I'll be even half as good a person as she was.
R.I.P. Carol...
Spidey, what dreadful though, sadly, not unexpected news. Such a brave and fearless inspiration to us all. Pain of such loss is tough but mitigated by the love and joy of knowing someone so special.
ReplyDeleteI only knew Carol as a "blog buddy" but still knew there was a very special Angel wanted back home and to be released from mortal discomfort and pain. God rest her soul and smile on yours, Spidey.
Thoughts are with you mate.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so sad to read this.
ReplyDeleteI love Bunni's web site. So much joy there!
Rest in peace Carol....Sleep easy, sleep tight....
ReplyDeleteThanks, Caractacus, I'm struggling, mate.
ReplyDeleteThanks, AOW, I've never known anyone like her - she was an angel.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Dazed, her pain has finally gone.
ReplyDeleteI'll be in touch as soon as I can, mate - I've just been finding it very hard to get my head round this over the last months since Carol first told me - I'm finding it even harder to get my head round the fact that she's no longer with us.
Thanks, OR, I need all the help I can get at the minute.
ReplyDeleteYou're so right, Robin, she was every bit as beautiful on the inside as she was on the outside - thanks, mate.
ReplyDeleteI attempted to explain to you how hard it was to deal with, because there's nothing that you can do to ease their pain...
ReplyDeleteYes you did, mate, and I knew it was going to be bad but this is absolutely horrendous - I now have a much better idea of what you've had to go through yourself.
ReplyDeleteThis helped me once, Spidey ... love is all
ReplyDeletehttp://www.steventrapp.com/dragonfly-story.htm
Thank you, mate, I think I might just take a copy of that story.
ReplyDeleteSpidey, honey, I need to talk to you about something important. You should be able to fetch my email address from this comment. Please email me. Bunni still needs a couple of things from us.
ReplyDelete(((hugs)))
And she will BE an angel watching over us all, I know because she said so.
ReplyDeleteNo there isn't, :( this is the 4th death in a matter of 6 months I've had to endure 2 were animals but still the hardest thing I've ever had to cope with one was my partners Dad's partner so it's been a really bad time, has made me realize how cruel life is. All I can say it does get easier over time don't be ashamed to cry x
ReplyDeleteThanks, MM, I've been doing a lot of that over the last five or six months - and I've been doing it even more over the last few days.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Zilla, I'll do anything I can for Bunni, but you already know that.
ReplyDeleteShe told me exactly the same thing, Zilla. x
ReplyDeleteIt's been some time coming. Deeply saddened.
ReplyDeleteThanks, James, it's been a very difficult few months, mate, I can only begin to imagine the living Hell that it must have been for Carol - she dealt with it all so bravely - the only thing I'm really grateful for right now is that the little darling is no longer in pain.
ReplyDeleteSpidey,
ReplyDeleteI did my best to pay tribute to your darling Bunni. If you would like, you can read it here:
http://politicalclownparade.blogspot.com/2013/05/amusing-bunni-now-safe-in-gods-hands.html
Thanks, PCP, I'd love to read it, mate - so many people have written so many nice things about Carol and I want to read all of them but I've been finding it much too difficult to be able to contemplate these past days....... heading over to read your post now.
ReplyDeleteSpidey, I know you and Bunni were dear friends and I send my sincere condolences to you. I never got the chance to meet Bunni or speak with her on the phone, but we did correspond personally by e-mail a few times after she became ill. I will miss her and the smiles she gave me when I visited her blog.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you Spidie xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, TCL, I really miss her.
ReplyDeleteThanks, GV, it really gets to me several times every day - and it usually hits when I least expect it.
ReplyDeleteStill missing her.
ReplyDeleteMe too, mate - every single day.
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